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how can somebody be so blindly confident
I wanna know that trick
how can you love yourself so damn much
it isn’t natural
it isn’t natural
it’s not natural at all
I’d like to learn a skill, something useful
then I’ll support myself and I will buy a house
I’ll live alone in it, somewhere out in the woods
and I’ll feel new again, I’ll be my own best friend
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Parking Lot
02:34
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had a lot to say
to my friend who feels the same way
getting high in the parking lot thinking
I don’t wanna go back
I don’t wanna go back
I could sit here all night
I don’t wanna go back
feeling the buzz
cars speeding past
together alone
anxious but calm
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Shape
04:05
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deep down I know
I’d rather be alone
I can’t fit into that shape
I can’t fit into that shape
I can’t fit into that shape
I can’t
for what it’s worth
I’m not here, everything’s dark
now I’ll slip into a dream
where I’m nothing and my mind’s free
I found the key
lightness of being
I could live just like a fool
I could live just like a fool
I could live just like a fool
I could
and in my dream
things were just as they seemed
we were on the phone
and your thoughts were my own
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Tired
03:36
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why do I beat myself up
I was not meant for this stuff
fall back into your own trash and just trust
or lie outside in the sun and just rust
fall back into your own trash
you had a lot to say about yourself
yeah I know you think you figured it all out but
I got tired of listening
I got tired of listening
I got tired of listening
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Harder To Do
02:43
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there are so many things I’d rather do
but here I sit in this box feeling blue
hard to think about
harder to do
hard to think about
harder to do
hard to think about
harder to do
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Around The Block
03:27
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driving my car around the block
cause I can’t find anywhere to park
makes me think about all the days I really try but
can’t seem to get anything done
then I go to sleep again
and I wake up in a bed
how mad can I really get
how hard should I laugh
walking in the rain through the streets
even though I’ve got no place to be
makes me think about all the times I really try but
can’t seem to figure it out
then I go to sleep again
and I wake up in a bed
how mad can I really get
how hard should I laugh
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A Couple Highs
03:25
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a summer with no plans
so much potential, a lot of disappointment
wish I could go back to that state of mind
soak in all that time
but back then, I was so insecure
another week of confused reality
hiding from what truly makes me happy
well I tried, well I tried
hit a lot of lows and a couple highs
making the rounds again
say goodbye to most of my friends
plenty of things to think about
but never say out loud
another week of confused reality
hiding from what truly makes me happy
well I tried, well I tried
hit a lot of lows and a couple highs
I really tried, I really tried
hit a lot of lows and a couple highs
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8. |
Perfect Version
03:22
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falling on my ass again
at least I have my friends
to laugh at what I’ve done
now we’re having so much fun
all my problems feel like paper
I can finally rip them up
some new tricks I’d like to learn
maybe this can be the cure
I’ve spent all my time just trying to be
as close as I can to the perfect version of me
perfect version
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9. |
I Lied
03:43
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woke up feeling sad
I woke up feeling sad
I should really delete my Instagram
what happens when we die
what happens when we die
I’m not sure I believe in the afterlife
it’s a riot, laughing and crying
did it ever feel okay or was I just lying
I should really be more present
I should go to bed at a reasonable hour
but what’s the fun in that
it’s impossible to keep your life together
it’s a riot, laughing and crying
did it ever feel okay or was I just lying
yeah I think I lied, I lied
in a major way
now I’ve hit a whole new low
but I feel everything
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Empty Cup
04:24
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feels good, as good as it could
alone in my room
now that you’re gone
I can hear my own thoughts
was it a waste of time
or a bridge I had to cross
your happiness is just a front
I don’t even want that much
in this place
I’m not anyone
can’t define myself
by anything I’ve said or done
it was enough to fill me up
but now I’m left with an empty cup
so what comes next?
so what comes next?
a lasting sense of self
a lasting sense of self
a lasting sense
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